Encouter Difficuties Thru Faith

Life cannot be smooth or calm as river. Life can be describe like a river . Imagine a river that sometime it can be calm like peace. Or sometime it can get rough passing thru the rapid. or sometime it can get low tide or high tide. The river that is calm doesn't mean it safe to swim or cross over. As the people in the interiors or those stay near the river always warm that the calm river, there must be a crocodile. So be careful. Or sometime the boat pass by the river will create the wave. And it depend how big the size of the boat. If the small boat, then the wave will be small. If the boat is big, then the wave will be big, and it can overturn the small boat or 'sampan'. Or sometime it can effect by low tide or high tide. If low tide, it make the boat difficult to pass or sail. But if high tide it can affect the village at the river bank. The river water also can be clear as crystal or muddy or even black.

Life is like the river. In cycle of life, from our childhood till our last day on earth, it can never be the same everyday. Even our every routine we do same job, but each second will be different. In life, it cannot be just the same all the time. Our life also cannot be calm all the time. Our heart cannot be calm or cool always. Unless we robot. Not to say mentally unsound, because mentally unsound also have the human feeling. Or sometime they will get angry or crazy. We can be cool or calm in our life, but until certain time, it will explode and it surely will made us angry, or sad, or very mad. Then we will try neither to blame our self or others.  When someone is hurting us, or make us angry, surely we will do something about it. Neither we get angry or mad with particular person, or whole group of people. Or someone is gossiping behind us, as we accidental listen to it. How do we fell about it? we may get hurt, or angry or no mood, or even we fell like the world is not fair to me.

In our life, there is always the problems and difficulties in our life. Some of the problems or difficulties cannot be solve just like overnight. Let us imagine.... One day, I when to see the doctor for my routine medical check up, and then when the results out, the doctor tell me that there maybe some mistake in the medical report. Then I when for re-do the medical test again. But the result still the same. So the doctor tell me that there some abnormal growth somewhere in my body. So the doctor ask me to calm because it still not sure neither it was cancer or tumor or just non harmful growth. When the doctor just mention the scary word - cancer, tumor or we just enter into our own 'fear factor' surely our heart will jumping up and down. We will ask what shall I do about it. All kind of questions is popping out in our mind. Some of the questions is logic, some even sarcastic questions. But what we will do while waiting for the final confirmation from the doctor before further treatment? Most of us will start to pray to God. No matter what religion, we will ask God. The first question will be - WHY....? We will take faith as our hope that it will be over or to help us pass the storm of our sickness. We will hopping that it will not be cancer or tumor. Or another situation maybe in financial crisis. One day, suddenly the world market when down. KLCI shot down like 45 degree below 0 and most of the share market loss. And all my money I invested burn like hell money. And within minute, the money gone like a wind. So then I start to pray. Pray to all kind of god. From god of fortune to god of wealth. even to god of kitchen or start praying to all kind religion. As long can hoping for miracle. Any kind god also never mind. so panic and hoping it will recover. Otherwise my family will start eat grass like cow (free ma). This is 2 scenarios that may happen to each of us. Hope it not happen.

Each of our human being is created to have this mysterious feeling of faith. Faith is something very mysterious in human life. Our faith will become stronger and stronger when difficulties arrive in our doorstep. Faith is like trust. or belief. or hope. Like we put in our trust to God. We belief in God or supreme being. In this world, there are many religion. Every second new religion is establish.  We will belief in our faith that through our faith it can over come our difficulties of our life.  Even our faith is as small as mustard seed, it shall overcome all kind of difficulties in our life. 

Life in Logistic

Almost 2 weeks I been in Bintulu since the 1st Oct. And another few more day I will off from my duties and heading back to my resting place. My mind is fell tired and exhausted. I been working like 24 hours. Even when I sleep, my hp must be next beside me. In case any emergency call from the rig. Who know, anything can be happen. I just really need a break. Maybe 2 week rest is enough for me. Otherwise to long holiday can destroy my body into laziness. It hard for me to start my engine especially after the long break. It need time and slow motion to gain back my workaholic. Only after the few day, then I can really back into my mood of working. 

My job in logistic field is one of the busy and hectic type of job I can say. Logistic is about movement from one location to another location. Neither is cargo or personnel. It can be myself moving from one location to another location. For example, going to work everyday from my house to office. Or when how to bring my CD to my friend oversea? All this required bit of planning even it already in our daily routine.  In life, not everyday be the same day. Don't expect that tomorrow will be the same as today. Or next week will be the same as this week. Or even next year be the same as this year. Thing will never be the same. Even lifeless being like metal will even get rusty next year. 

I just don't know why I ended up in this field. From the first day of my work life, I been in the logistic section. Until to this day, still in logistic section. I never studies logistic before. Logistic study was not very famous during my study year back in the 90's. The word 'logistic' only appear in subject like management or in marketing only. But just a small scope of it. It want to study logistic, it would be best start with Supply Chain or Warehousing. Because it all related with each other. But for me to know about supply chain, warehousing and logistic is because it start from my experiences in work field. I been working in timber company. That is how I know the 20' and 40' container. My superior even ask me to measure the length of the container. hahaha. Until I work with 100% logistic and forwarding company. It about everything I want to know. From cargo movement to vessel movement. From custom clearance to vessel clearance. From import to export. All kinds of equipment I seen before. Even soya bean or corn maize I been cleared. Until I fully join in oil and gas company, I still in logistic. Guest the word logistic will be in my mind forever. 

Past & Present in Working Life

I really like the working environment in my new job. Every work there must be pressure and stress. But it depend what the level of stress one will encounter. But I really like the environment in my office. So quite and far away from town of Bintulu. Not really stressful and the work is OK la. Why I say not that stressful? Because the project that I monitor still not yet start. That why it zero stress and pressure. Plus the environment is surrounding by the little jungle. Every morning I can listen to the bird singing on my window. It a black with white coloured bird. Don't know what it called. The coffee is always there in the coffee maker. Plus, there always a free breakfast in the kitchen everyday! Compared to my last job, It less stress and working environment is much better. Well below are 10 comparissons I make;

Present Job (M)

1. Zero Stress (Project not start yet)

2. Can have a good nite sleep

3. Cola (not coka-cola la) every month

4. Good pay and working environment

5. Good working environment - fair and square.

6. Free coka-cola and soft drinks in office for staffs (ini baru coka-cola minum)

7. Free breakfast everyday

8. Each staff just do his/her own duties only

9. Take time to complete the job... but must complete within or before due time

10. well... still a good place to work in


Previous Job (H)

1. Stressful until can get hypertension in work.

2. Nightmare...even thinking of work before sleep, during sleep and wake up.

3. Cola apa? Coka-cola untuk clients pun kena beli sendiri

4. Teruk punya. Pilih kasih punya la. If the new staff the HQ related to big boss, surely semua kasi punya.

5. Naik gaji jangan harap la... Susah nak naik punya

6. Jangan kata staffs! Clients datang office meeting, nak beli coka-cola pun muka masam sudah. Kena beli sendiri punya. Just served Mineral water. Itu pun kalau boleh paling murah punya. 50 cents!

7. Breakfast?! Kena beli sendiri. If company provided everyday, bankrupt!!! how to take care of the staff like this?

8. If dapat, 1 staff buat kerja 10 staffs...

9. Sorry la. Start 8.00 am, kerja kerja kerja saja la. Semua urgent punya. Tak urgent pun jadi urgent.

10. Aduh... kalau dapat, lepas dapat bonus, keluar la... (my ex-staffs told me)

But thing now change as I managed to get into better job in Oil & Gas Company i.e. one of the best and well do company in Malaysia. Well it a miracle to enter that company, as alot application, only me can accepted into it. Big thank you for all those help me to get into this company. Hope it will last me in the company until my retirement.

Worry & Confuse

"....Worry is one of two components of anxiety (the other being emotionality). Worry refers to negative self-talk that often detracts the mind from focusing on the problem at hand. Emotionality refers to physiological symptoms such as sweating, increased heart beat and raised blood pressure...." taken from Wikiquote at http://en.wikiquote.org/wiki/Worry

Life is full of unexpectation especially what is ahead of us. We cannot expected everything will be 100% thing will be ok or according to our expectation in the plan. Don't go for high expectation in our life. There also up and down in our life. No human being is 100% normal. As we are just human being. Not a robot. We all maybe do some planning in our life. Or to plan something that we want it to occurs what is best for us and without failure that can dissapointing ourself, if the plan goes beyong our plan. That is why, always there is last minute change in the plan. Or unexpected things happen that can effects what we plan for. It never goes beyong normal. Or someone is spoil your plan for no reason. When things goes unexpectedly as what we plan, somehow we will get worry and nervous. This is normal as we all human.

This is what happens to me in the last few day when I want to coming to Miri/Bintulu by my car. Somehow at the last Brunei exit, my car is confiscated by the Brunei Custom because of just couple of liquor in my car. As what I plan, to drive down to Bintulu via Brunei (no choice but have to pass Brunei as the only road to Miri). But until the last boarder, thing goes beyong my control and immagination. This is not what I planned before I start my journey from Labuan to Miri. And this is my first time also, and as what I told the officer, they should give me a change to let go me as a warning. But no at all. When I encounter this situation, I my mind start to confused and all kind of mixed feeling surrounded me. Even until now, I still worry of my car, that is still detain at Brunei. Hope is will all pervail. and that my car can be release in short time, so that my feeling of worries can be disappear soon.

Hope that the song, Don't worry, Be happy can relieve my worry a bit.

Journey of Bad Day in Life

I been having a very very bad day for last 2 days ago. Really f**king day in my life. The felling of worries, and tensions, and fear. It started on the 5th August, 08, when I was about to resume my duties in Bintulu. So this time I planned to drive to Bintulu from Labuan. My journey start at 6.30a.m. from Ferry terminal Labuan. And the ferry depart Labuan at 7.45 am. Well below is the time frame of my journey back to Bintulu, overnite at Miri and the next day continue to drive to Bintulu..(that was my plan), until the fu*king incident happen near the Sg Tujuh boarder between Brunei and Miri. It was so close but yet still far way...It was the last stop at Brunei before reach Miri..

10.00 a.m - Arv Menumbok Terminal
10.45 am - Arv @ Beaufort, Sabah
11.25 a.m - Arv Sipitang, Sabah. Having my lunch at Sipitang.
12.00 p.m - Continue journey
12.20 p.m - Arv at Sabah/Sarawak boarder - Sindumin
12.45 p.m - Arv Lawas Town, Sarawak
1.15 p.m - Pos Immigration Mengkakap, Sarawak
1.20 p.m - To cross over the Trusan river by feri
1.30 p.m - Brunei Immigration, Labu
2.10 p.m - Brunei Immigration, Puni, Exit to Limbang Town, Sarawak
2.15 p.m - Cross over the Puni River
2.35 p.m - Immigration Malaysia at Limbang
2.20 p.m - Limbang Town, having my break
2.55 p.m. - Continue journey
4.15 p.m - Enter intu Kuala Lurah Immigration Pos, into Brunei
6.45 p.m - Arv Sg Tujuh Immigration Check point.. the Custom officer check the car.

And the bad luck of my day start here... the custom officer stop me from continue my journey, b'coz I was bring alone some bir - about 8 can only! and 2 bottle of Vat 69, 1 bottle Bacardi Lemon and 1 bottle Johnny Walker Red Lable and 2 carton of Pall Mall. It not just for me to sell or what so ever. After the begging and begging again, the stupid custom do not wan to let me go. Instead to hold me and to investigate me back to Kulau Belait. Worst still is my car is being hold, maybe for 2 week or less or more. And only after almost 11.00, with stupid statement, I was release and go off. What the worst is that the custom officer is so stupid until do not what to do and not even know how to spell. Form in English, written in Bahasa!!! and from taking just my statement only, it took 3 officers to composed it!!!! what worst still is they keep asking each others the same things again and again. And they told me that my car need to be hold in Brunei until the investigation complete. So I need to take almost everything out of my car and of course my bag and document bag. And walk to the bus station at Kuala Belait. Thank to some of them also to few custom officer who is friendly and willing to take me to Seria to find cheap inn, but I decline. No money that time lor to stay at Inn, and if I stay at Seria, I need to back to Kuala Belait to take the bus to Miri. Only Kuala Belait have the bus to Miri.

The first person in my life I call is my future wife - Yen Ling. She the first person I call and told her what happen. Well I was worry about her also, since she will be my wife very soon. When you are very in love with person u like, you will thinking of that person and let the person you love very much know what happen to you. So I managed to call Yen Ling while I was at Custom Office at Kuala Belait. And I told her I will call her back latter. So when it finish with the Custom, I was looking for the telephone boot to call her again and to told her not to worry. Guest she the one who ask me not to worry. Only after that, I call my brother to tell him what happen to me.

So for few hours starting from 12 midnite till the next day, the cement chair near the Bus Station will be my bed and place to sleep. No mood to eat my dinner also. (where got mood to eat after all this incident happen.) I take my shower in public toilet. Luckily no one was around. Beside the town is so quite and dead. It a Islamic state!!!! No Entertainment after midnite!!!! Everybody must sleep early!!! If you don't sleep early, the police will fined you!!! It was very hard for me to sleep. Luckily there a old apek was collecting can, so take my time to chit chat with him. I was surprised he told me that nowaday even rice also cannot bring out from Brunei!!!! If like this, better don't encourage people to go there and do shopping la. If shopping there, then latter, conficated also at boarder then what the point of it. After the apek left, I was alone, I try to get some sleep and rest, but my mind was worry and keep thinking of my Yen Ling back in Labuan. I can feel she was very worry about me also just like I worry about her.

The next early morning, about 6.00 a.m, I went to the bus station and waiting for the bus. And it happen, that I was chit chat with 1 man from Miri and wanted to go back Miri. It happen also that last month, he brought 1 bag of rice and wanted to bring back to Miri. Unfortunely at the boarder his rice was taken by the custom at Brunei. For me this is really bad, not only for own country, but also an expression to neightbour country like Sarawak. Immagine, we go Brunei do to the shopping, and wanted to bring it back home, then the custom not allowed you to bring the thing crossover. Then what point to go there? It will be bad for the ecomony of the country especially in the future. Guest after the oil run dry, wonder the Brunei economy will depend on the market and people consumer. By that time, there will depend on neighbour country to do shopping. But what for it, when we buy their things that cannot bring back? Better don't buy at all. No wonder alot Mirian don't want to do shopping in Brunei. Miri is much better to do shopping. Better the f**king Br***i *a*ay are not allow to enter into Miri or Limbang. After all, once they arrive Miri or Limbang, they become two face!!!!

Upon arriving at Miri bus station, I took another bus to Bintulu, coz I need to work. But no mood to work yesterday since I really had my bad day. And I was exhausted and very tired. The whole journey from Miri to Bintulu, I managed to take some sleep and rest. This was the first time incident happen to me. But worst case is my car is in Brunei and I need to claim it back. Hopefully the process will be fast and easy for me to claim back. Wish my car is like batmobile which can self destroy like in the latest Batman movie - the Dark Prince.


The below song will fit me having my bad day. And the title is also Bad Day by Daniel Powter,


Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day